Monday, November 14, 2011

Am I still deserving to be loved?

Because I'm scared of everything. I hurt the only guy I love. I didn't mean all the stupid things i have said, but i  know that I hurt him so much especially his ego, one more thing is, I even said that I don't want to trust anymore.

Actually, I never mean those things to him, I am just obsessed, possessed lol whatever.. but it was all happen already, I cannot take those things back again. Even if I already said sorry for many times, I still feel bad and not right for it. I love him very much, No word can describe how i really love him. Im just stupid and I think I'm not deserving anymore to be loved. I am selfish for thinking only what I feel.

Because of my trauma and fear, I feel that I already lost him.
I cannot even control myself crying here. I wanna say sorry and I wanna prove it to him that I wont ever do it anymore. But i don't know if still right.

I can accept him from his worst to his best, even though we are far from each other now. I love him with all my heart and mind.

But one thing is for real, I'm really sorry, for what happen and I hope you still love me. I can wait for that time.
Even it takes a lifetime.

I'm very sorry, my love.

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WhiteLady ♥

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Hoping in Rainy Days

You are not afraid of heights, you are afraid to fall.
You are not afraid of water, you are afraid of drowning.
You are not afraid to die, you are afraid for what the things aren't you haven't achieve or done.


You are not afraid to love, you are afraid to hurt....
Yes. To be hurt all over again. Why? You just love, why you also need to be hurt by million times? So sad, painful, wanna die. You already give your best,your trust and love. *Sigh..
I don't want to trust anyone anymore.. So I don't wanna be hurt again and hope for nothing.
If i experience it again, maybe i should die. My heart isn't strong like them. Mine is weak. easy to be break. No one wants to take care of it.

Story: If I love, I can wait, but my heart that missing the one she loves is a pain,that leads to death.
I trusted you,since i love you. I care for you,I never forget you, I only want to be with you, every time, every second of every minute of every hour of the day.You are always here in my heart and mind. But why you didn't understand me. Why you guys didn't aware of girls feelings?

Hope you love me and stick to your promise,like you said, i only want to see you happy.

I love you,no matter what. I am still here for you.

WhiteLady