He is the sweetest and kindest man I have ever met who values his family more than anyone. He never leaves me when I'm at my darkest time. He stays even though I keep getting mad for what he didn't do. He loves me so much. Yes, I'm still afraid of pain. But I guess, I'm used to it. Painful love is still love. But I am the only one who keep hurting my self overthinking. I know he is faithful. It's just me. I have a problem. How I can continue loving him if this is the way I think of life? How can I go back to the way I used to be? I am not like this these past few months, only yesterday. It's just suddenly all the bad memories and things came up in my head and unfortunately I'm suffering again but he didn't know why and what he did. Because, he never did wrong. It's just my head.
Until now, we never had problems that we never talked. Most of my relationships he is the only one that stays whenever i have worries and fears that I can't solve, whenever we have understandings, he never failed to say "i love you" and "I'll hug you". Whenever he is like that, I just ended up crying and all my heartaches disappeared.
I want to live with him, I cannot see my future without him. I love him with all of my heart.
Can you help me?
