Love Ends Here

Chapter 5
(The End)


I don't know how to say.. People keep saying, it will pass, it will gone, but  until now its very hurt.. He even don't say why he choose to be just friends after what he promise to me that he will go through anything just for me.. Going here and taking me to their place.. in the future we will be together..

Is it because I don't deseve to be loved? Why I always getting hurt with the same reasons? Am I that stupid? My heart always longing and missing him.. What did i do to make him not love me anymore? He said, He will still come and see me, he will stay with me.. But he said that I should find a person who can love me "here" ... Is it because  I keep yelling at him? I keep getting mad because he is like that? Yes he is not sweet.. He will only sweet if he want or feel.. He also said.. "Even I love you, Im already like this.." I know my bad because I keep getting angry, because  I was  looking for attention.. But I already say sorry, I'm almost  ask him not to leave me.. Why always like this..Why...... :'(

The pain is so... I can't explain.. Tired..I don't care if my parents  get mad at me..
He didn't care.. I did everything to forget  him, I go to salon, color my hair, footspa,  I go theme parks, swimming, drinking, malling.. Everything to make me happy, but  at the end of the day.. It's still hurt.. All the happy memories we did together, will be end as  MEMORIES.. All just  suddenly gone.. (sigh) Im almost destroy my self again..

Just one thing.. If  he really don't want me anymore, why would i fight my love if he already gave it up. If he not care, why should I care? If that's what he wanted, I won't bother him anymore.. Even it hurts me.. I will face it, I will endure it. It's always be the same.. Because it's always happen to me.. But I can breathe now and  live again without worries and a carefree life, no cries, no sorrows. I BELIEVED IT WILL PASSED. I am worthy than all and that's  what you can't see.. Desperate to fight my love when you don't even do anything. When you can't fight your love to me. You don't know how I feel, because you are not here.. And I hope if you want to back again, do not try, because  I am tired to the point that I cannot love you anymore.. I don't know.  If it's not you, there will be someone out there who will love and accept me.

Many friends advices me but  I never listen, We know when people gives advices to us, we won't do it, because it is still us who have to choose. Because I love him, and  I'm in shocked. Torn to pieces, Brain cells shattered. But in the end of they day you know that it is right. and that is what you have to do. 

Maybe now, yes, I'm lost. But sooner, you will realize what you did and you will regret it. I hope so.
So many people who love me, but I can't see them.. Why? Because I only looking at you. But now.. I won't look for anything, I am just here, waiting.. And focus to my future self for now..
Thanks for Everything.

yeon

How can I get over a heartache?

Yes. For now, i'll be using English. Because, I want everyone to understand my blog. (Laughs!) Especially, I have noticed that, many of my friends, including me have experienced this before, and NOW...


To start with, what is heartache?
Answer: intense anguish or mental suffering.
..."what???" (nosebleed)
Answer: intense sorrow caused by loss of a loved one .
.."Ahhh.."

Okay. So now, how can WE get over a heartache?


..."Heartache is hard to get rid of. I guess we all go through it at some point in time. I know, still, even though you love that some one, you need to give his/her happiness. Though, it hurts, Life still go on. Hard for me to do this blog, coz im still affected, hard because I cannot advice my self from this. But i can share what should you do, or I do to get over this (as I've experienced some before) now.


I know they say time heals all wounds but who needs time when you are heartbroken? How do you get over an ex- boyfriend when you still see him everyday. It hurts, really. To see someone whose in your arms before, but now, even talk you cannot do. Some people make closer attachments than others and that's why its the most harder to accept. But what can you do?


Reasons for some broke up:
1. Need space. ("daw")
2. All out of love (wew ure just liking another girl/boy lol)
3. saw him/her with another girl/boy. (nice 2 timer!)
4. Infidelity (jealous but inside ur the one planning it to show if he/she really loves u lol)
5. Misunderstanding (zzzzzz)
6. Lack of communication (free unli call? or share a load u want?)
7. Non stop arguing (cats and dogs, eat some pride pls)
....etc.


How can I get over a heartache?
..." find some activities to think about and get excited about. it. Go for a vacation, travel. Go play game, party! Hahaha.Be busy for it. In that, your focus will be on your work/activities. Less time in thinking about the past. Pray also to GOD, remember to thank him everyday for your life. Life goes on after all. If your'e really attached to a person, find someone that cares enough to listen to how you feel or who is going through the same thing( it makes me fell a lot better because you can say all the reasons why your hurt.,all the pain you've feel inside.) You can also try talking to other guys. But dont forget that do not hurt yourself. It doesn't help. People change, and many people don’t change for the good.


So hard right? You dont know what to do. You dont know what will happen next, how can u survive everyday? Nah.. Just be strong, always think positive. Still, that's not the end of the world. ".........zzzzzzzzzz, thats what they said" How would you feel when you are about to sleep you had everything, and then, when you wake up, you have nothing at all. I'm still waiting. I just need a break. We must trick it to heal, to think of.... build new neurons/connections of positive thoughts in hopes of moving on. Move on. Sigh. I don't want to tell the story of mine regarding this.. but I hope this one helps.


So..I keep telling myself ..."this too shall pass"…and I know it will..
Life is good.. Enjoy every minute of it. Don't lose hope. God will guide you all the way..
So for those of you who are sitting,lying there crying a drum of tears.. Try to watch this music vid: Kiss the rain and My memory and only you by my favorite piano artists...For him..


WhiteLady