A Princess' Tears

-Short Story-
(A sudden break up)

Rachel: Where have you been? Didn't you know I keep looking for you, I'm worried that something happened already to u that's why you're missing for a few days. Are you sick ? Why not message me :(

Kristoff: I'm very busy and  I don't feel to online and  message you.

Rachel: Why?

Kristoff: You're always getting mad and I don't know why and it makes me unhappy.

Rachel: You don't love me anymore? Are u giving up?

Kristoff: Yes I give up.

Rachel: Why like that? Why so soon? You said you love me. Now not anymore?

Kristoff: We can be friends if you want.

Rachel: You know I'm not mad, if I get mad, there will be a reason. And I already told you  if I get mad, it's just sulking. I can't mad to you. You know  I don't get mad to you for long. I even waiting your reply but there's nothing. :( You said you love me and  you accept me even I'm like this. And now you don't like it anymore? I don't always mad at you. You should know that. You made me fall in love with you and now you're going to leave me?

Kristoff: I'm sorry :(

Rachel: Can't you think about it? Let's fix this.

Kristoff: I also don't want  someday I will be tied  up.

Rachel: You know you are free, I never kept you from doing anything you want. You see me like that? Ok then..

Kristoff: Let's take a break first.

Rachel: Do you still like me?

Kristoff: Yes

Rachel: Alright, if that's what you want.. I can't force you.. I will wait for you and sorry for what I said before, I never mean it. :(

Kristoff: Yeah, we take a break first ok and rest..

Rachel sent a message after 2 hours

"I'm really sorry if my attitude to you makes you unhappy.. I never mean anything bad i said if you think I'm mad. I cant think right that time. I don't know now what will happen but I will wait for you.. i really love you and sorry."

He replied: "I know you don't mean bad just take care and rest well.. Goodnight, sweet dreams and  sleep tight."

........The next day........

Rachel was busy at work, she never think anything but she is only silent and not talking to other people. Then she got a call from Kristoff.

Kristoff: How are you?

Rachel: I'm fine

Kristoff: I heard you are leaving here. Why are you quitting? Is it because of me?

Rachel: I don't know.

Kristoff: Don't quit please.

Rachel: (in mind) are you always been like this? You're asking too much. First u gave up to me, second, you ask to be friends and now you want me stay with you? Did you ever consider what would I feel?

Kristoff: I will rest soon , I'm still sick, I'm 2 days sick.

Rachel: You should've taken care yourself.

Kristoff: I'll try. But I'm more worried for you.

Rachel: Why?

Kristoff: Because you're someone I loved before

Rachel:(in mind) before? So not anymore?

Kristoff: By the way, I am happy that I still see you here and talking to me.

Rachel: I will go out.

Kristoff: OK. I will go home, I'll see you later ok?

.....no reply...

Kristoff: what are you doing not sleeping?

Rachel: I'm busy doing installing my PC drivers

Kristoff: you got many car ah so long? (Laughs)

Rachel:(in mind) you still can joke ah. Lol

Kristoff: Ok I will see you tomorrow ok? I go off now. You should rest soon. You can message me anytime you want but I'll read it  If I got home already ok?

Rachel: Ok. Ty.

Then, Rachel sent a personal mail after an hour.

"I want to talk to you. But i don't want.. I wish you are fine.. but you know, i was keeping myself busy so i dont remember anything, but at the end of the day, i worry about u and i missed you. And it hurts, i didnt know that this will happen that the person i thought who love me will leave me all of a sudden. These past few days i didn't think about what happened. Yes , it hurts. And I cant even shout it because i don't know. And you take care yourself , you're not a baby anymore. Goodnight.."

 

 To be continued..

"Sometimes I wonder, if there's at least one reason to hold on, I will."

Yeon 

How To Make Up With Her?

If you want to make up again with your ex-girlfriend..

I'm feeling teenager now to make some advice based on my friends and my own  experience.

1. Straight to the point that don't expect that she still likes you, no matter what. When a girl hurts, no one can describe how much pain she feels, if a girl says "no", don't force her. Well, If a girl still likes you, it will be a surprise, but she will never be the same as before. Not all girls will chase the guy after he broke her heart, left to nowhere and will back and pretend nothing happen and we will happy to say that "OMG, he's back?! Ah finally, I love him so much!" NO! Remember if the girl said she's tired and shes had enough. It's true. (Depends in you two are married couple or with a baby. lol)
~~ Even we still like you, we will never say it.. We want to see if you are serious to us and you love me so much.

It's not people who change,

it's the feeling anyway.. 

2.Talk to her in private. We, especially me I like if the guy will suddenly call me and ask me "How are you?" Well.. I find it very special and melts my heart if a  guy will call..And don't let us know that you miss us or what ever the reason you called. Few only will do that kind of thing. We want you to talk to us in person.. So if you live very very far away, other country or other planet.. You have to come!

~ Try to talk to her friends too, but remember her friends hate you more than she hates  you. They can curse you and talk to a witch to cast a spell over to you. HAHAHAHA! Try a  mild gathering or ask them what you have to do or if there is a chance, or just ask and tell them you are sorry too for hurting. For me, I like when a guy talks to my friends about me. =]

3.   Ask if we can still be friends? Yes, you can. But, again don't expect us to change and back to normal as before. Because that is a a miracle.. They said...LIFE GOES ON...or SHE STILL LOVE YOU AND EXPECT YOU TO BE BACK. Hmmmm?! It's a little awkward because we girls, find it hard to be sweet again with you guys who broke our heart..

~ The answer will be  only  YES if she's still like you or wants you to come back. And a NO if she's done with you, PERIOD!

YOUR EX ASKING TO BE FRIENDS 

AFTER BREAKING UP IS LIKE........

KIDNAPPERS ASKING TO "KEEP IN TOUCH" 

AFTER LETTING YOU GO

-_-

4. Always think what are you really want to say. We hate things that we make us bored. You should always tell anything like a story, about  your life, about happy thoughts. You can ask us a questions but don;t be so forward or overboard. You may end up being kicked out by our heels or pointed shoes. A flying hand too.

"YESTERDAY

 YOU SAID

TOMORROW"

~~ Try to do a surprise or anything which you not yet do for her. Not so glamorous  but  let her feel she's special for you.

5.Don't Joke. Be serious. If you do it,we will only think that you are not sure  to your feelings and you only want to make fun of us. We won't ever fall in any of your tricks. Not all girls is as stupid as you know. Remember a hurt girl will curse you. LOL

~ You know what kind of joke. Not the joke as you trying to make her laugh out of your pick up lines or what ever.

"Do you believe in love

at first sight?

Or, should I walk by again?" ^_<

6 Don't say promises. Because promises are made to be broken. It's true. You want a second chance or else, Be true and say it clearly to her.. establishing things in a proper way will make us think that you are sincere.

"Since you went away..

my heart breaks everyday..

you don't know because

you're not there.."

~Girls mostly always looking forward to a promises. They hold to that belief that you love them.

7. Say sorry and mean it. Even our hearts has been broken by our love ones, we still wanna hear the words sorry and feel that you really mean it.. Don't let us remember the last worst situation or any situation that you did last time that make your girl sad and hurt. Don't make us worried again that you may end up doing it again, we are  not just afraid.. Do you want us to feel that "why am I always hurt by the one I love"
Simply, we don't blame you guys if you hurt us even you don't mean it. Because we think also to avoid let you feel that you only hurt me".. Make a proper and serious apology from your heart.

Removing sadness and sorrows in our heart is a part of moving on and to have a peaceful life..Because forgiveness is what we can give to you, for us to move on, and start a new life..  You are part of it.. Should I forgive you or not, it's me who will suffer.. And that's not mean I accept you again in my life.. If we two are meant to each other for real, then we will be together.. And let's see if it's part of us too.

We are still have the loveliest heart of all..

*Photo credits from google.

~yeon

Love Ends Here

Chapter 5
(The End)


I don't know how to say.. People keep saying, it will pass, it will gone, but  until now its very hurt.. He even don't say why he choose to be just friends after what he promise to me that he will go through anything just for me.. Going here and taking me to their place.. in the future we will be together..

Is it because I don't deseve to be loved? Why I always getting hurt with the same reasons? Am I that stupid? My heart always longing and missing him.. What did i do to make him not love me anymore? He said, He will still come and see me, he will stay with me.. But he said that I should find a person who can love me "here" ... Is it because  I keep yelling at him? I keep getting mad because he is like that? Yes he is not sweet.. He will only sweet if he want or feel.. He also said.. "Even I love you, Im already like this.." I know my bad because I keep getting angry, because  I was  looking for attention.. But I already say sorry, I'm almost  ask him not to leave me.. Why always like this..Why...... :'(

The pain is so... I can't explain.. Tired..I don't care if my parents  get mad at me..
He didn't care.. I did everything to forget  him, I go to salon, color my hair, footspa,  I go theme parks, swimming, drinking, malling.. Everything to make me happy, but  at the end of the day.. It's still hurt.. All the happy memories we did together, will be end as  MEMORIES.. All just  suddenly gone.. (sigh) Im almost destroy my self again..

Just one thing.. If  he really don't want me anymore, why would i fight my love if he already gave it up. If he not care, why should I care? If that's what he wanted, I won't bother him anymore.. Even it hurts me.. I will face it, I will endure it. It's always be the same.. Because it's always happen to me.. But I can breathe now and  live again without worries and a carefree life, no cries, no sorrows. I BELIEVED IT WILL PASSED. I am worthy than all and that's  what you can't see.. Desperate to fight my love when you don't even do anything. When you can't fight your love to me. You don't know how I feel, because you are not here.. And I hope if you want to back again, do not try, because  I am tired to the point that I cannot love you anymore.. I don't know.  If it's not you, there will be someone out there who will love and accept me.

Many friends advices me but  I never listen, We know when people gives advices to us, we won't do it, because it is still us who have to choose. Because I love him, and  I'm in shocked. Torn to pieces, Brain cells shattered. But in the end of they day you know that it is right. and that is what you have to do. 

Maybe now, yes, I'm lost. But sooner, you will realize what you did and you will regret it. I hope so.
So many people who love me, but I can't see them.. Why? Because I only looking at you. But now.. I won't look for anything, I am just here, waiting.. And focus to my future self for now..
Thanks for Everything.

yeon

Teddy Bear

Small, cute and a fluffy friend of mine.
My companion.
I named him Seol

The one who always wait me to go back home.
The one who every day's watching me how to eat my foods.
The one who sees me how  I do my make up.
The  one who always saw how I dress.

The one who is there to spy whose the person I chat or talk.
The one who was watching my online games.
The one who secure me if a friend is here to visit me.
The one who is accompany me when i watching movies at my free time.


The one who always see how I am so happy if someone make me happy.
The one who is there if I am pissed off.
The one that is ready to wait to hug when I am sad.
The one who is being my shoulder when I cry every night.

He is my room mate at my room. Even he is not talking, moving. I know he understands me.
Even my room is coming messy. I always clean and stay away my seol first before anything else.
He is the only one who can understand me. Who can see  how I look good when smiling, how  I look terrible when I am sad, and how  I look so hurt when I am in pain. Every night I'm telling to Seol this words..

"I am afraid, that one day, I cannot love anymore.
I am afraid, I cannot feel any love already.
I am afraid, no one can ever let inside my heart again.
I am afraid, My heart will forever numb."

But,

"I am still want to feel how to be loved.
I am still love him.
I want to try.
I am still waiting for him."

Hear this song..
Tomorrow

Love Begins Here

Chapter 1
(A Short Story)

There was a girl, who have a pretty smile but sad eyes. A girl who is ambitious and optimistic and when she fall in love it will takes forever.

There is also a guy, he lives in other country, a tall, dark and handsome type. A friendly, caring, but a pervert. A guy who values religion and success in life. Helpful and very responsible guy.

The girl likes the  guy that he met in game, so he ask his number.. They always talk each other there before, care each other.. exchanging photos, story. One day, the girl said her feelings to that guy. Of course the guy won't believe. Who will believe to a love with a long distance and born so soon? He's wrong. That girl really love him, believe it or not. The guy now approach different to the girl now. Everyday the girl is trying to smile. That girl loves him so much as she don't even care if they are different in everything. The saddest thing.....the guy don't like her..

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Song for you
>>So I thought

How can I get over a heartache?

Yes. For now, i'll be using English. Because, I want everyone to understand my blog. (Laughs!) Especially, I have noticed that, many of my friends, including me have experienced this before, and NOW...


To start with, what is heartache?
Answer: intense anguish or mental suffering.
..."what???" (nosebleed)
Answer: intense sorrow caused by loss of a loved one .
.."Ahhh.."

Okay. So now, how can WE get over a heartache?


..."Heartache is hard to get rid of. I guess we all go through it at some point in time. I know, still, even though you love that some one, you need to give his/her happiness. Though, it hurts, Life still go on. Hard for me to do this blog, coz im still affected, hard because I cannot advice my self from this. But i can share what should you do, or I do to get over this (as I've experienced some before) now.


I know they say time heals all wounds but who needs time when you are heartbroken? How do you get over an ex- boyfriend when you still see him everyday. It hurts, really. To see someone whose in your arms before, but now, even talk you cannot do. Some people make closer attachments than others and that's why its the most harder to accept. But what can you do?


Reasons for some broke up:
1. Need space. ("daw")
2. All out of love (wew ure just liking another girl/boy lol)
3. saw him/her with another girl/boy. (nice 2 timer!)
4. Infidelity (jealous but inside ur the one planning it to show if he/she really loves u lol)
5. Misunderstanding (zzzzzz)
6. Lack of communication (free unli call? or share a load u want?)
7. Non stop arguing (cats and dogs, eat some pride pls)
....etc.


How can I get over a heartache?
..." find some activities to think about and get excited about. it. Go for a vacation, travel. Go play game, party! Hahaha.Be busy for it. In that, your focus will be on your work/activities. Less time in thinking about the past. Pray also to GOD, remember to thank him everyday for your life. Life goes on after all. If your'e really attached to a person, find someone that cares enough to listen to how you feel or who is going through the same thing( it makes me fell a lot better because you can say all the reasons why your hurt.,all the pain you've feel inside.) You can also try talking to other guys. But dont forget that do not hurt yourself. It doesn't help. People change, and many people don’t change for the good.


So hard right? You dont know what to do. You dont know what will happen next, how can u survive everyday? Nah.. Just be strong, always think positive. Still, that's not the end of the world. ".........zzzzzzzzzz, thats what they said" How would you feel when you are about to sleep you had everything, and then, when you wake up, you have nothing at all. I'm still waiting. I just need a break. We must trick it to heal, to think of.... build new neurons/connections of positive thoughts in hopes of moving on. Move on. Sigh. I don't want to tell the story of mine regarding this.. but I hope this one helps.


So..I keep telling myself ..."this too shall pass"…and I know it will..
Life is good.. Enjoy every minute of it. Don't lose hope. God will guide you all the way..
So for those of you who are sitting,lying there crying a drum of tears.. Try to watch this music vid: Kiss the rain and My memory and only you by my favorite piano artists...For him..


WhiteLady