Red Letter

Temporary Romance
A short story

While I was falling apart in my sadness, he was filling his stomach with grilled beef, chicken and beer and happily jamming with his friends. It's like after all it was nothing to you. After the break up, I realize the purpose of relationship. It will always about love at first and people play with emotions. Some relationships lasts long and you don't know when it will be over. Sometimes, after 1 year or after 5 years and maybe after 3 months. But then, you will also realized, if people don't trust love anymore and gave up it will be like I will be immune to be hurt and will not love anymore. A woman who will live with the pain just to get over and forget. Because even you cried a lot, he will never come back.

After my 5th relationship ended,  I never gave any passion to the people and acquaintances around me. I only seldom see my friends and choose to stay at home, hang out alone when bored at house or work out, play badminton with acquaintances. The people who confess their love for me or telling they like me, I ignore, telling straight to them that I don't want them or saying I don't know how to treat guys and I will only hurt you. 

...Sometimes, I want to use them to get rid  of the hurt and  being alone.

 

In respond, people think if you being mean to them they call it attitude or choosy when you just have that personality or your standard. Then if you are being simple and nice they will cheat you and stabbed you in the back, so when they know you need comfort and love, they will hurt you and play your emotions. Just shit.

Do you know what is the reason for break ups?
Fall out of love and the passion of dating is gone. People get bored with the same routine. It is sometimes right and sometimes not. But you can see it.. Dating is annoying. I never had a date which I have to wear pretty dress and be a lady one time, I never had a date that I feel comfortable just like getting to know each other than holding hands and kissing. I like being alone the best and I don't like being bothered. I don't want to cross fates with anyone, anymore. Sometimes all i feel was these.. Whenever my heart hurts and sad, I don't get angry and yell at the world. I just chose to be alone, listen to piano songs and cry. And that's how love changed me.

You cannot blame a woman who didn't ask for any reasons why everything's happened or why did you choose to leave them. Just that way, because, we are too hurt. Why she didn't fight her love for you? What do you expect from her if you already left? She did everything for both of you and you just choose to give up.

....Just let it go....

I will never beg for the love anymore, I will never look for it. When people really wants to be with me and wants to enter my life, then they have to make an effort and not as shit to tell you that they love you. Question is: "Until when?"

Yeon

Sad Truth

Some people are just a little too scared to get close with other people You know why? Because those people who said that they will stay no matter what happen, always leaving. The part that I don't understand is one day someone will tell you that  they love you then the next day, not anymore. That he is the only one you ever loved and he doesn't want you anymore and you don't even know if he really  loved you all this time or what. How come people changed so soon? How can a love hurt so much?

If that person don't love you enough and left you with no choice, you can't do anything. It will be always up to him. No matter how or in what way you fight your love for him, you can't force a love that has gave up. People around you will say the same thing, "You deserved someone better, someone who will love you unconditionally." No matter what the outcome, whatever you feel, you still have to be strong and move on. It will pass anyway, you have to move forward and accept the reality that he is not the one for you. You have to live with the pain. One thing to remember, don't force yourself to forget the person instead just keep thinking about him and think about positive outcome that you are thankful. Why? Because the more you try to forget the person, the more you will remember and be hurt. Even you hide it you can never make it forever. 

Even it really hurts..  

Pain makes  people change and stronger. And that's why some  people  scared to love and trust again. This is one of the reason you shouldn't make your hopes high and don't expect anything.. Love is give and take. Trust your partner and respect each other. You can hurt each other, that's the thing that you can never avoid.. You have to risk something for everything. People don't know what they got until it's gone, but the truth is they knew what they had and just never thought we could lose it. I'm happy this way and very thankful that I got enough real and loving people around me so I don't miss the ones that left. They can stay away for all I care. It's not my loss anyway. 

Yeon ♥

Acceptance

Everyone said.. "Love is hard", that nobody who fall in love come out with good feeling. Why do you believe that a love can last forever? Forever?  It's a no. Love not last forever. Its you and your significant other way of trusting and caring each other that last. Love only last if you both are healthy and if you have energy.. Know what I mean? connection, trust and respect equals love. I am not lying. Someday, you will realize it. As much as we love somebody, we also get bored. But you know..  I also wish that love can last forever. I loved a man so much that make my heart broken. I can't do anything for a love that gave up.

Remember that when you fall in love, it's easy. It is very easy to fall in love.. A reality that if your partner broken up with you it is not them who suffers, it's you. We can only love as long as somebody is interested. People are like toys. They come and go. You want this thing to last.. but the other person says no. What do you want me to do? Kill myself? Hehe. Nothing. This is reality. We must first love ourselves. This is how we can accept the truth and the real world. Let us hope that we all find "true" love but remember that it is hard to find. Don't just find. Find your self first and be happy with your own. So whoever come and go in your life, you will not be hurt too much like hell. And once you find your true love, don't let it go anymore.

Yeon ♥

Kiss - Because I'm A Girl 

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Uploaded by drahcirodip on Feb 17, 2012

English translation.


I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you're special
I believed those words, It was my happiness

You should've told me that you didn't like me anymore
But I didn't have a clue and I depended on you
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you a lot
Because I am a girl to whom love is everything

If you give all the things too easily he'll get sick of you
That's men, I have been told and it's no lie
Trying my best not to be fooled again
But falling in love again, that's a girl

You should have told me you didn't like me anymore
But I didn't have a clue and I depended on you
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you a lot
Because I am a girl to whom love is everything

Narration:

We parted ways today, please be happy?
Please meet a person better than me?
You're just the same with other men
It was just then when you told me you love me
Honestly, I don't want you to be happy
What if you'll find a girl prettier than me and live happily with her?
How if it makes you forget me then?
I'm so hurt, so much i want to die
When I still love you so much

Please don't take advantage of a girl's willingness
I didn't know that to be born and loved as a girl
Is this hard and difficult

Although I will curse you I'll still miss you a lot
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you a lot
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

WL