Someone

Someone asked me what I like in a guy..

I said, "Tall, dark and handsome..

But, that is only my dream guy and an impression. What I want really is..

Someone who will live and stay very long time with me and will never leave me.."

Whatever the reasons... As long as he love me and will stay with me, that is worth much already.



Yeon♥

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Typhoon Glenda Ph

July 16, 2014, Wednesday , 12:00 am

12:30 am - the very strong wind comes, with little rain.. I was reading my Facebook news feed, checking PAGASA news and GMA news about the weather.. It is 101-120 kmph cyclone wind and It's frightened me 'cos i really feel that she is coming. Our place, Laguna has a signal warning 3.

3:00am - As of now, I felt my brother's roof at his room is already ripping off. I keep checking our room every minute. Covering the important things like fan, bags, television, his window. He is sleeping and I can't understand how he can asleep when it's so noisy. Our room located at the second floor, we called it attic.

3:30 am - the electricity is already cut. It's gone around 1am the back after 30 minutes. And now its gone.

4:00 am- It becomes worse, my brothers wall and ceiling has a water flowing already, that part is made of wood, I'm hoping it will be fine not to break. I keep praying and saying His name to let our house endure the wind and the rain til she get out of our area of responsibility. I am waiting someone, whoever to call me,cos I need some communication, because i know it will be hard without signal,electricity after this Glenda mess.

4:30 am- I keep praying and saying.. stop it already. I decided to put all my important things inside my cabinet. My PC, telephone, speaker, bags. My monitor, I covered it with plastic and cloth. Since I don't have a space anymore in my cabinet. I keep going to bathroom to pee but the door can't open because of the wind keep fighting me. The window there is half open, can't close due to its rusty metal already. Since the roof of my brothers room ripped of the water keep entering. It has a connection to the bathroom downstairs. And omg. I heard a roof piece flew!!! So metal sound. I don't know if its ours. OMG. Please stop it already.

5:00 am- I thought I am going to have a heart attack, she still keep on blowing! WooOoshhhh woOoshhhh!!!. And the roof i feel half of it has been ripped off and trying to stay there until she get out. You can't sleep if like this.

5:30 am - It is. Indeed. Typhoon Glenda was a very strong one. Its been 5 hours already and she still keeps on whistling,growling like a very mad tiger. Our worries is not the black out or flood.. it is the wind that she keep blowing into our roofs,windows, trees, vehicles.And I.................. am still wishing the sun to come, because I can see light already! But, Glenda still here and whistling, growling and keep destroying Laguna! Hufff... I can see the trees, plants, streets, farms is like a....... . . . .

6:00 am - when she will stop?? I still can't sleep. I can't sleep downstairs, my brother use the sofa bed at the small hallway near our parents room. I cant sleep in the chair in dining area too. The kitchen floor and sink is full of water from window. The stairs have water too from i don't know where the fark they came!! Only my Room not wet and safe. And i also cant stand the smell of the pig came from the farm nearby. And now i have no signal. My mobiles battery down to 50% i hope typhoon
Glenda will go away already.

6:30 am -Antenna and some roof piece from our neighbor fell. Glenda still on a fight. Final battle using super cyclone wind that made our guava tree fell, big post slant, my father's tricycle go to the middle of street. Glad I check everything every time and so I wake up my Father to pull back his trike. Unfortunately he has flu. So, I asked my brother to do it and I assist.

7:00 am - Ugh! This Glenda will not leave til she not she not break all the things she wants. Dang it. I told you don't break woman's heart. That's why shes like this (kidding aside). The newly made pig pen and junk area near the farm, roofs all gone, woods keep flying, leaves and garbage keep dancing with Glenda. I feel sooner my room window glasses will collapse and break. This time is the wind is stronger than earlier.

This time too I am super duuuuuuuuuper hungry. I cant eat because im not feel at ease. I want to sleep really. >_<

9:00 am - My room walls such a messy already filled with water.. Same to my best friend room ,because of the wind direction changed. It's terrible. I'm feeling sleepy so much but i kept awake because of the noise of the room.clang!bannng!! Bamm! tong!bang bang BAANNGgggg!!! plaaanNNNnGGG!

10:00 am - I fell asleep. The wind became slower and slower..

12:00 pm - im awake to change the towels that i put in my walls to protect my bed and to the&nbsp; floor. My cabinet a little wet but the things inside are safe.

2:00 pm - Glenda has gone already and im awake, go bath and eat. I eat like haven't eat for 1month. No water so I used the mineral water. I decided to clean asap my room, I changed my PC place next to my cabinet because the roof need to be fix where got water pouring in my bed. Father fix temporarily the roof and the walls

6:00 pm- still no electricity, the MERALCO still keep fixing the post and the cable wires. All of our mobiles losing battery already.. we only have my mom's phone for fm radio to listen to the news.

7:00 pm - candle light dinner.its very cold. We had fun dinner even we faced such a bad weather.
8:00 pm - my college classmate visit me and my best friend to check if we are OK. And that time too the electricity and water is back finally! Internet not yet back, maybe tomorrow.

July 17, 2014

The power is gone again. Black out! We don't know why.. But at least we already charge our phones, clean some clothes, towels, dishes all we used in cleaning the house. At night it back again.

July 18, 2014

BLACK OUT AGAIN! for6 hours. I just knew what is the reason of black out when the power is back, I watched the news and it's rotating black out because of the other places needs to be fix and shortage of electricity. My gad MERALCO! We are very understanding but please tell us what time or inform us as soon as possible not afterwards! Because it may cause problems with out appliances that we are using.

I'm thankful everyone is safe and no such a flood happened. Thanks God you didn't leave us. Glenda please have mercy.. There's a LPA forming found outside the PAR. I hope it will gone and no more very strong typhoon this year.

#GlendaPh
#HorribleTyphoon
#PleasePrayForThePhilippines

Note: This article was posted after 2 days when we got the electricity back.

Yeon❤

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Happiness ♥

You can start creating your happiness, first is SMILE. You can smile, yes. Why not? Get all the  positive energy that life gave for everyone. DREAM. BELIEVE. DO IT.

Start being honest to yourself, know what you want and what you need. You can't forever depend on anyone in your  life, you are the only one who you can count on.. Don't problem the problems, it's already problem, don't make it another problem. Do what it takes. If you fail, it means you tried. Trying something you don't know what will be the result, but trying means you want to know how to solve it or how can you manage to trust and believe in yourself. Mistakes is a part of life and a lesson. Accept it and Bring it on!
Don't waste your time loving those people who really are not worth it. There will be a time when you don't need to look for  love or happiness.. A time when you can start think of doing something for yourself before anyone else. Be productive, don't frown, explore somewhere be with someone who you really  love and  loves you and enjoy every day of your life! Happiness starts from us and not to other people, if we know how to love ourselves first, then wherever we go we can find happiness without looking it first to other people.Spending time with the right and real people and enjoying things that you already have, you don't have to look for anything. Be contented. You can always have anything you are deserved. With those things, you can find contentment and contentment means happiness.. If you are not contented then you are not happy. You will try  to keep looking for something that will make you happy. That's people in real world unless they find themselves in a very hard situation then a thought and realization will come..

You can always meet right people, but you have to know who is the real ones.. Do not be afraid of anything. After you love and understand yourself, you can find happiness everywhere in every opportunity. Don't let  negative people hanging around you. Cheer up! Just don't expect too much, expecting too much leads to destroying yourself because you're gonna change again. Work up and reach your dreams. Get out from your comfort zone. If you know what you want, you can always do something. Don't be lazy, time is too precious..

Forgive everyone, forgive yourself, forget all the things that hurt you before, that's already a lesson in your life. If you keep stick on it, you can never move on, you can never find happiness. When you forgive you will receive the peaceful in your heart.. Let go all the negative things inside of you. Accept and be happy with what you have now, we are not  living forever, enjoy the every single day of our lives.. Always thank God for all the blessings he gave especially, today, that we are living and tomorrow again for another life. Thank Him for everything.


yeon

Conversation With A Shadow

Are you hurt?Or are you confused?
Is there someone who loves you now?
Do you like him?

To think that you should be happy, that there's someone who's loving you,
the real YOU.
But why your heart is crying.
I can see you're happy, but what is wrong now?

Are you going to ignore him? Avoid him now?
Even it will break your heart by being apart from him?
Don't ask me how, I also don't know. That's why I'm talking to you.

Too much sadness and sorrows
Just how I define love..
Love?
Its really wonderful.
But, what can you do if you are afraid?
You love. You can be afraid.
But you are afraid to be hurt.
But you cannot love at all if you don't try.

There's no words to express how to love..
It is by action
There's no wrong to try again
Try and try until you found your true love.

Failure is a part of life
If you don't fail it means you didn't try at all
If you are too hurt or you are not prepared
How can you know if you are ready?

If you are really scared to do it
OK you can stop..
But be sure when you stop,
You will never regret it..



yeon❤

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Question and Answer

1.
A Guys ask me..
"Do you like to be getting hit?"

I answered.. "No.. Why would I??? I like to hit people that being hit.." She laughs... "But in love, it's different, If I love the  person, It's okay if I'm the one getting hurt than I hurt people. I can't take it, because  I know how it feels to be hurt."

2.
G: ""Do you want to date?"

M: I don't think dating is the best solution to start off a relationship.

3.
Him: "Why you don't want to love again?"

Her: "Because, I am afraid by being not loved back and I'm afraid that He will leave me for the same reason.."

4.
He: "Do you think why is our boss always easily mad?"
She: "why?"
He: "People like her have painful past or facing problems, struggling right now, she is weaker than you think. She gets mad easily because its her way to defend herself, for her to avoid the hurt. or for her to not think too much about her problems"

5.
Guy: "Hello"
Girl: "Hey, why do you keep calling me, Just wait til I get there, OK"
Guy:" Then why do you keep answering if you don't like I'm calling, hehehehe, I just want to hear your voice that's why I called.."

6.
Her: "Hey! Why are you  getting mad at me now?"
Him: "I already told you, don't ever show your smile to him anymore. Don't ever make that face to others also!"
Her: "Why? Why are you doing this to me?"
Him: "You don't know? Because  I don't want them to fall In love with you too."


7.
Me: "If you have to choose to live with someone who truly loves you but you don't love him back, or to live alone for the rest of your life loving someone who doesn't love you, who would you choose?"
You:  "I will choose to live with someone who loves me, even I don't love him. It will take time to learn to love a person if you  will like it and if your heart is open. Person who loves you will never  ever hurt you and will love you unconditionally. Because loving a person who doesn't love you is the worst because you will only  hurt yourself and he will only  hurt you."


8.
He: "What would you choose? Live happily, Live peacefully, or Live with Love?
She: "When you  love your life, love  the people around you and you love yourself, peace will come and you will feel the happiness from within."

9.
Girl: "When should I say I love you to the person I love?"
Guy: "As long as it is not never too late. Hehehe!"
Girl: "I just don't want he think I'm too forward."
Guy: "If you feel it, say it. Love is never planned. But once you said  it, it's no turning back, it's like you're giving a promise with your heart to your love ones. You can take your time."

10.
Her: "Is long distance relationship works?"
Him: "Yes. As long as you  have trust with your some one, when there's trust, there is love. If you can communicate most of the time, it will be fine. As long as  you will meet him soon. If one of you changed then its the saddest part of it."

11.
Sister: "Brother, how can I stop liking someone?"
Brother: "If you don't want to like him anymore, don't bother to see him or talk with him anymore."

12.
Me: "He said that he loves me, but why I do feel I'm the  only one who's loving him?"
You: "Maybe because you  expecting too much, that he  love you too like you do."

13.
Girl1: "Hello, how are you? Can I  ask a favor from you?"
Girl2: "Yes, what is it?"
Girl1: "Will you help me rely this message to him, Thanks for helping me last time.. That's all thank you."
Girl2: "Do you want me to thank him, because he did something you are grateful for, or you want me to know that he did something that you are  grateful for? If you are really thankful, you should not ask someone to send your message to another person. Do not tell others to say it for you."


yeon ♥

Colors of Spring

~ There's no relationship started without uneasiness..

Xian is a childhood friend of Mei who has a crush to her since they were young.. Xian back after he studying and graduate college to see Mei.. Given the excuses he's back because he wanted to work in his motherland,after all he's a pianist and singer. Xian invited Mei to have a dinner, they had a long conversation and Xian realized that he still in love with Mei.. While Mei is just had a break up from his boyfriend for 2 years and she still mad and hate her life about it. But still she can mange herself a totally tigress even they work in the same industry.

The next day, Mei is working at her office, asked by his boss to choose who will be their next model on their next magazine issue. All the staff wants Jie Zion to be the model, but Mei disagree and said "there are so many models, why you all wants him?"

Ann: "Mei, He's popular and wanted all by the magazine to make him the model for this month issue. But Jie still not accepting any offer because he wants a high class magazine but humble staffs. So I think we can get him"

Director: "I know Mei can do it, she never failed me since before, I'll wait for the decision."

Mei: "But, what if I can't get him?"

Director: "Well, you can think many strategy.."

Mei called Jie and she can't reach him, so she decided to go on his apartment."


Mei: "Hey Jie, why are you doing this to me? Because you know that our company wants you, so you all reject every offer that the other company, for what? Aren't you tired seeing me and make me pissed off?"

Jie: "I didn't know your company needs me, well, if you don't like, I won't too.

Mei: "Okay, I got it. Don't worry even u break up with me because you like my friend, Lols you think I care? This is just a business.

Jie: "You still didn't know anything. Don't accuse me for you don't know."
Mei: " For what I have to know?" All I know you just throw me up for no reasons at all.. That's how you ended our relationship. And Ok, I don't care anymore. So if we meet again each other in the future, that's maybe a business purposes only."

"And, I only care about myself now, I'm better"

Mei left and go back to the office, while Xian called her and ask to meet him at the park..

Xian: "Hi Mei.. I know you know that when we are still in our  high school days, I'm already In love with you. Even you don't like me before, now when i say, I like you, are you going to believe?

Mei: "Why? Huh.. what do you like about me? Ugh I don't believe. I'm annoying, selfish, always looking for attention, I'm almost childish when getting mad. But I'm smart and pretty. So, aside from that what is so nice about me?"

Xian: "Are you always asking like this stuffs when someone tells you that they like you?"

Mei: "Ugh, what should I say then?"

Xian: "You always starting a relationship with many questions?"
Mei: "How I should start then?"

Xian: "By dating. Know the person."

Mei: "Dating? Should people always dating in the start of relationship? Why not go back to the old times where the guy visits and waits the girl at home? No holding hands, no kisses."

Xian: "You like that? Then should I do it now? Like before?"
Mei: "Hell , no."

Xian: "But, still, I like you."

Mei: "How come you like me? you said, you're a popular singer and pianist."

Xian: "So? Is there a level of people who can only like you? But, I love you."

Mei: "I'm not saying that, I mean...... Suddenly Xian grab Mei's waist and kiss her in the lips, Mei felt that the world just stop for 10 seconds. She's totally can't do anything and think herself.. "Why, why I can't move? Why is the feeling like this? I can't let go of this."

Mei felt that is the perfect and sweetest kiss she had in her whole life.  A kiss that she read in the books,  a kiss with true love and with magic that you can't ever compare to anyone's kiss that you had in your life. The kiss that will change everything and will make you fall in love, true love.

After Xian brought Mei to her home,
Xian: "Goodnight dear"

Mei hearts has been fluttering while going inside, finish bath and go to her bed, she keeps wondering how, why, she can't even explain, all she know is she is very happy and keep smiling. She's waiting Xian to call her again before sleep. Until..

She fell asleep..

In the morning..

Mei: "Why isn't he calling?" She yells....."Didn't he know I'm waiting his call since last night :-/ ugh never mind, I'll wait after I eat.."

1 hour later...

"Aissshhh I don't like this feeling, I'm gonna throw my phone!!!!"

__"He said, He love me, he kissed me, then he gave me a ride going home and say goodnight dear. And today is Sunday, no work and he hasn't called me.. It doesn't makes sense. T_T .."

~~The guy is actually order her a food for afternoon snack~~ Hehehehe.

Xian checks his phone and whispers, "Should I call her or I wait her call. I'm shy after all. What if she reject me suddenly?"

He ask someone to deliver the food to Mei's house, then Mei called him and said: "Hey what's all of this food and so many? Come here and eat with me.."

Xian: "I'm busy now, don't worry I already eat. Please eat a lot ok"

At night..

Mei go to the place where Xian and Her always playing when they was still a kid, she's waiting that something coincidence will happen that night, even though Mei just met again that guy, She fell in love already with him.. But, she still feel hesitate because of the past incidents that she's always getting heartbroken and left by the guy she loves..

She called the guy, while calling she suddenly hold the call and cancel..
Mei: "Ugh, wait, why I'm calling him? I already did this&nbsp; before, so stupid, I won't call him!"

"Wwaaaait....! Why I keep thinking of him?? Aiish" She whispered with a sad face..

Xian really didn't call Mei when he will about to sleep.. Instead, he look and kiss Mei picture in his phone.. "Goodnight, Mei.."

The&nbsp; next day, Mei and her friends having a breakfast and talking about guys..

Lina: "Hey Ann, why don't to you go out already with your suitor?"

Ann: "Ugh, go out, you said? Aissh it's just waste of time, now he likes me, ask me to date, but he even don't ask me go on a sweet date which is only the two of us, he always wants us to go to the bar or hotel with his friends.. Even he ask me to meet his parents, in the end he will only left me and find another girl, he is not that serious. It's just a waste of time!"

"EXACTLY A WASTE OF TIME!!!! A waste of feelings.." She smiled..

Mei: "Oh okay"

Next day..

Mei done work and preparing to go back home when Xian waits her at the gate of their office.

Xian said: "Have you been well? Why you didn't call me?"
Mei: "Eh why??"

Xian: "I've waited for your answers, please tell me how you feel?"
Mei was silently tell to herself, "I guess I have to tell to him, that I know he is just played me for fun, because I looked so easy to get"
Mei: "It was fun.=) "

Xian: "hah?" then a girl come out from Xian's car who's Mei hate.. the girl come to him and hug him.

Mei said to herself.. "See! right, geez"

Mei: "You two look together, hope you live well!! GRRRR!!"

Following day.. Xian comes to Mei house to eat with her..


Xian: "I miss you.."
Mei: "What now?"
Xian: " Do you want we live together here?"
Mei: "What are you saying? Isn't it enough that you played me for fun, ah?"
Xian: "Me? What's wrong with you? Can't someone like me, like you? Did you think I was not serious?"
Mei: "Yah, Why you just kissed me that day, why? You said you love me, but you didn't call afterwards, then you do all the craziest thing and now you will appear here? Do you think you're normal? I really can't see what did you like about me."

Xian: "That is why I kissed you. Because you're always getting mad over tiny details. What's with you that you always gone mad."

Mei: "Because, I can't understand."

Xian: "Because when you fall in love, you're using your head first. why not listen to your heart?"

Mei: "Me, using my head? You think why I'm like this? I'm just being aware of guys like you."

Xian: "Then when I tell you, when , why and how I like you, are you going to believe in my feelings?"

Mei:" Haisshh Im going out already, late for work"

Xian: "Now I don't understand you, are you being uncomfortable when I'm being serious? Ugh you're such a puzzle."

Mei: "Yes so uncomfortable, I'm gonna die, Sheez"


*feel free to share my posts, but don't copy it, thanks for reading!
Yeon♥

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She Needs Love

Short Story


conversation of a girl who always taken for granted and the guy who likes her very much


At the bar..

I said to him: "Why do I feel like I'm alone?"

He asked me: "What happened?"

I answered: "You know? I have a lot of friends... They said I'm good. Yeah I'm kind, thoughtful and friendly"

"Sometimes, I'm bad."

"What's the point of living as a good person? If you are kind, you'll be blessed.
Do you believe in words like that?"

"Why do I always feel the world hates me?"

He said: Why are you alone now? At this time at least someone is by your side to accompany you.

"Ah.. So you come here because  you see me alone and  pitiful?" She asked with smile..
"Because at this time, a girl all  by herself without friends, without  lover, is drinking?"

(Serious)
"Nobody loves me...

But, I am fine..

Why? I'm alone in this world anyway..

Because even I am with friends, We're on our own..

Also, I wasn't born to be loved..

I was born to eat and live well on my own..

Also... You see, I like being lonely.." She laughs..

He asked: "Were you  always like this?"

I said: "What do you mean? Where will you find a woman who is always like this?It is something you will realize as you live. The world's secret..

Except me, everyone is a stranger."

He said: "If you keep live believing that, isn't it hard?"

I answered: "Why? If people hate me for being like this, then I hate them too. It's simple. There's no reason for me to look good to people who don't like me. I am having a hard time liking back people who like me. It's killing me!"  .... Eyes set straight to the guy with teary eyes...

~Today is like yesterday..  And even tomorrow nothing will change.. Don't cry.. Protect yourself.. ~

While going home..

She said: "What's the reason for me to live kindly?" That's all a trap that people set up to stab you in the back.. Living like this is so comfortable and easy.."

Her purse fell..

"Ugh, look at this,  It's not going the way I want it to, anyways.. 
Why should I live being conscious of other people?"


yeon

How To Make Up With Her?

If you want to make up again with your ex-girlfriend..

I'm feeling teenager now to make some advice based on my friends and my own  experience.

1. Straight to the point that don't expect that she still likes you, no matter what. When a girl hurts, no one can describe how much pain she feels, if a girl says "no", don't force her. Well, If a girl still likes you, it will be a surprise, but she will never be the same as before. Not all girls will chase the guy after he broke her heart, left to nowhere and will back and pretend nothing happen and we will happy to say that "OMG, he's back?! Ah finally, I love him so much!" NO! Remember if the girl said she's tired and shes had enough. It's true. (Depends in you two are married couple or with a baby. lol)
~~ Even we still like you, we will never say it.. We want to see if you are serious to us and you love me so much.

It's not people who change,

it's the feeling anyway.. 

2.Talk to her in private. We, especially me I like if the guy will suddenly call me and ask me "How are you?" Well.. I find it very special and melts my heart if a  guy will call..And don't let us know that you miss us or what ever the reason you called. Few only will do that kind of thing. We want you to talk to us in person.. So if you live very very far away, other country or other planet.. You have to come!

~ Try to talk to her friends too, but remember her friends hate you more than she hates  you. They can curse you and talk to a witch to cast a spell over to you. HAHAHAHA! Try a  mild gathering or ask them what you have to do or if there is a chance, or just ask and tell them you are sorry too for hurting. For me, I like when a guy talks to my friends about me. =]

3.   Ask if we can still be friends? Yes, you can. But, again don't expect us to change and back to normal as before. Because that is a a miracle.. They said...LIFE GOES ON...or SHE STILL LOVE YOU AND EXPECT YOU TO BE BACK. Hmmmm?! It's a little awkward because we girls, find it hard to be sweet again with you guys who broke our heart..

~ The answer will be  only  YES if she's still like you or wants you to come back. And a NO if she's done with you, PERIOD!

YOUR EX ASKING TO BE FRIENDS 

AFTER BREAKING UP IS LIKE........

KIDNAPPERS ASKING TO "KEEP IN TOUCH" 

AFTER LETTING YOU GO

-_-

4. Always think what are you really want to say. We hate things that we make us bored. You should always tell anything like a story, about  your life, about happy thoughts. You can ask us a questions but don;t be so forward or overboard. You may end up being kicked out by our heels or pointed shoes. A flying hand too.

"YESTERDAY

 YOU SAID

TOMORROW"

~~ Try to do a surprise or anything which you not yet do for her. Not so glamorous  but  let her feel she's special for you.

5.Don't Joke. Be serious. If you do it,we will only think that you are not sure  to your feelings and you only want to make fun of us. We won't ever fall in any of your tricks. Not all girls is as stupid as you know. Remember a hurt girl will curse you. LOL

~ You know what kind of joke. Not the joke as you trying to make her laugh out of your pick up lines or what ever.

"Do you believe in love

at first sight?

Or, should I walk by again?" ^_<

6 Don't say promises. Because promises are made to be broken. It's true. You want a second chance or else, Be true and say it clearly to her.. establishing things in a proper way will make us think that you are sincere.

"Since you went away..

my heart breaks everyday..

you don't know because

you're not there.."

~Girls mostly always looking forward to a promises. They hold to that belief that you love them.

7. Say sorry and mean it. Even our hearts has been broken by our love ones, we still wanna hear the words sorry and feel that you really mean it.. Don't let us remember the last worst situation or any situation that you did last time that make your girl sad and hurt. Don't make us worried again that you may end up doing it again, we are  not just afraid.. Do you want us to feel that "why am I always hurt by the one I love"
Simply, we don't blame you guys if you hurt us even you don't mean it. Because we think also to avoid let you feel that you only hurt me".. Make a proper and serious apology from your heart.

Removing sadness and sorrows in our heart is a part of moving on and to have a peaceful life..Because forgiveness is what we can give to you, for us to move on, and start a new life..  You are part of it.. Should I forgive you or not, it's me who will suffer.. And that's not mean I accept you again in my life.. If we two are meant to each other for real, then we will be together.. And let's see if it's part of us too.

We are still have the loveliest heart of all..

*Photo credits from google.

~yeon

Love Ends Here

Chapter 5
(The End)


I don't know how to say.. People keep saying, it will pass, it will gone, but  until now its very hurt.. He even don't say why he choose to be just friends after what he promise to me that he will go through anything just for me.. Going here and taking me to their place.. in the future we will be together..

Is it because I don't deseve to be loved? Why I always getting hurt with the same reasons? Am I that stupid? My heart always longing and missing him.. What did i do to make him not love me anymore? He said, He will still come and see me, he will stay with me.. But he said that I should find a person who can love me "here" ... Is it because  I keep yelling at him? I keep getting mad because he is like that? Yes he is not sweet.. He will only sweet if he want or feel.. He also said.. "Even I love you, Im already like this.." I know my bad because I keep getting angry, because  I was  looking for attention.. But I already say sorry, I'm almost  ask him not to leave me.. Why always like this..Why...... :'(

The pain is so... I can't explain.. Tired..I don't care if my parents  get mad at me..
He didn't care.. I did everything to forget  him, I go to salon, color my hair, footspa,  I go theme parks, swimming, drinking, malling.. Everything to make me happy, but  at the end of the day.. It's still hurt.. All the happy memories we did together, will be end as  MEMORIES.. All just  suddenly gone.. (sigh) Im almost destroy my self again..

Just one thing.. If  he really don't want me anymore, why would i fight my love if he already gave it up. If he not care, why should I care? If that's what he wanted, I won't bother him anymore.. Even it hurts me.. I will face it, I will endure it. It's always be the same.. Because it's always happen to me.. But I can breathe now and  live again without worries and a carefree life, no cries, no sorrows. I BELIEVED IT WILL PASSED. I am worthy than all and that's  what you can't see.. Desperate to fight my love when you don't even do anything. When you can't fight your love to me. You don't know how I feel, because you are not here.. And I hope if you want to back again, do not try, because  I am tired to the point that I cannot love you anymore.. I don't know.  If it's not you, there will be someone out there who will love and accept me.

Many friends advices me but  I never listen, We know when people gives advices to us, we won't do it, because it is still us who have to choose. Because I love him, and  I'm in shocked. Torn to pieces, Brain cells shattered. But in the end of they day you know that it is right. and that is what you have to do. 

Maybe now, yes, I'm lost. But sooner, you will realize what you did and you will regret it. I hope so.
So many people who love me, but I can't see them.. Why? Because I only looking at you. But now.. I won't look for anything, I am just here, waiting.. And focus to my future self for now..
Thanks for Everything.

yeon

Just A Dream

Napaginipan ko nanaman siya..

Sa school na naman, binigyan nya ako ng  chichirya, Clover ata, hahaha hindi ko na matandaan basta muka siyang clover  kulay white and yellow yung balot niya.. Examintaion day ata yun, nung dumaan siya sa samin, tinititigan ko siya tapos winawagayway niya yung  clover, nang iinggit kung baga. HEHE! Habang nakain kasi siya non, tapos na  yung  exam, pauwi na at  bigla siyang lumapit sakin tapos sabi nya, heto oh tinirhan kita, tara uwi na tayo.. Tapos hinawakan niya ung kamay ko at tapos na yung panaginip -_____-

Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit kasi sabi nila napapginipan mo lng  daw yung isang tao kapag namimiss mo sya.. O siya yung  taong naisip mo bago matulog. Pero hindi ko naman sya naiisip bago ako matulog.. Kasi iba yung taong iniisip ko.. Hehe.. Pero siguro Oo, namimiss ko din sya.. Sino ba ang hindi mkakamiss sa taong first love mo?

Habang iniisip ko kung bakit ko sya napaginipan, nag online agad ako sa Facebook at lakas loob ko siyang ni-PM (private message) hindi ko nga alam ano nakain ko eh, kasi nang iisnob kasi siyanung huli kong  na-chat. I mean hindi siya ngreply.. "seen zoned".. and never ko pa siya nakasama as in kami lang dalawa.. Long story po about sa kanya, pag sinipag ako ayun baka ikwento ko din dito.. ^_^ Then ayun, tinanong ko siya  kung kamusta na siya,bilis ng reply nya, sabi nya, "ok lng namam, napa chat ka ata" Ayun, tapos bigla  ko na lang naisipan na  magpasama manuod ng sine, kahit nahihiya ako, tinanong ko pa din, minsan lang mangyari yung pagkakataong magreply sya kapag  ng-chat ka eh..

Kaso po makakasama lang sya kapag natapos na niya ginagawa nila sa bahay.. ._. Eh muntik na nga umulan, buti na lang hindi.. Kaso ulit, 4 pm na hindi pa rin siya ngrereply.. ._. Nung  ngpm na ulit ako.. sabi ko, "(insert name......)" hindi pa rin siya nagrereply.. ayun baka nga busy. Hay, kalungkot lang, feeling ko tuloy wala ng gustong dumamay sakin.. T_T ....

Pero masaya na akong nakausap ko siya ulit pagkatapos ng mahabang panahon.. =]

#MALANDE MODE
#FIRST LOVE

princessyeon